less is more?


I am working tirelessly to be less and less about my accumulations.

A lot of changes have happened over the last year -

I transitioned from surviving on non vegetarian, to being repulsed by it, to being indifferent to it and then preferring vegetarian and rarely having fish and just not being fussy when the situation demands for it.

Just not needing alcohol or any other external stimulant - just being happy anyway, most of the time.

Becoming more disciplined , more productive, though I still have bouts of procrastination and letting things linger on in my head , marinating (sometimes longer than needed)

Taking complete responsibility of my emotional well being - not indulging in self pity and psychological drama (but allowing myself weeping sessions during PMS)

More patient. It is what it is. Not complacent, just not crazily impatient as I used to be. 

Being less reactive. 

Much more careful about what all I buy and what all I need. 

It’s not an easy process. Hopefully I’ll build on this in 2019. And be more consistent and dedicated with all my practices.

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