n im a believer!

yesterday it hit me that i am going to be 24 very soon! i mean, it feels like almost yesterday when i used to stay up all night hopping from one chat room to another and tell random people im 16 ( i used to love the attention!) n now im 23 years 7 months and 20 days old! im in my mid-20's! needless to say people around me have started getting engaged/ married/ in serious relationships. my relatives have started dropping hints to my parents. leave alone my relatives. my younger sister has tried to convince my parents that just might have to get their younger daughter married before me. simply because i might never consider it. anyway marriage is not even a consideration at the moment. 

this post is not about marriage. its about me not being ready to get out of my comfort zone. i am in a happy place right now :D. my life revolves around my work. my clients, assignments make me happy and keep me motivated. my salsa classes (today was my 4th class) fill me up with joy. the delhi weather the last coupla days has been so wonderfully wonderful. lots of plans are in the air. about weekend trips/ month long trips/ night outs, which might/ might not work out(just planning is enough to make me happy).  the last movie i saw (juno)restored my faith in humanity. the people i have met in the last couple of months have also somewhat made me believe that not everyone out there is manipulative/ deceitful/ guided by ulterior motives. there are individuals amongst us who are still simpletons at heart, who have not been polluted by the world. i have all my needs taken care of(i come back home from work to a mother who spoils me rotten). my parents do not put any restrictions on where i go, who i go with. they trust me. i do not take advantage of it. they support me in every possible way. i have a brother and sister who adore me. i get smashed at regular intervals. and friends who take care of me when i do.

why would i want to get out of this happy place? n the fact that im going to be 24 is scaring me because things will change. eventually. but they will. 

but then hopefully i will find happiness in other things :D
this optimism is shocking me!
*fingers crossed

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