my new favorite word


Several WOW! moments these days.
WOW! Why can’t the people I like/love co-exist/get along
WOW! Is this going to be my life. For the rest of my life?
WOW! Do people need to constantly emote.
WOW! Kids really are adorable. I’m gonna have lots.
WOW! School really does not prepare you for anything life has in store for you.
WOW! I can’t believe I’m still stuck in this shit.
WOW! Did I really write such crap?

(after reading the blog after 1.5 years. BUT since this blog is only for my amusement and record keeping of thoughts as I constantly tend to misplace, files/hard-drives/notebooks I shall never delete any post)

WOW! Really need to be not so shameless once in a while. Some day it will all come together and i will not be able to show face.
WOW! Does this mean there will never be another new boy?
WOW! Did I really become a capitalist after all that social enterprise drama I did.
WOW! Did i really try so hard to not become my mother that i became my father?!

Reading this after more than 5 years. I have stopped using my favourite word these days. I simply smile and nod my head. There really is no point going around screaming "WOW" and making your complete shock, dismay, hurt, astonishment ( I could go on but will stop) felt to all and sundry.

SMILE - Is my father, who raised me like an independent, thinking woman, actually a sexist who categorises my anger over his mismanagement a tantrum due to hormonal/ mood issues?
SMILE - A client who refuses to acknowledge my presence in a meeting and continues to look at my sales manager( a man) even though he is not speaking a word and is visibly uncomfortable over a client ignoring his boss. 
SMILE - My work was my sanity but is it breaking me because every day I have to prove my worth.
SMILE - Have I categorised myself as someone who is strong that I am now expected to never be weak. Have I categorised myself so much a manly woman that I feel strange about bringing up my womanly desires. 
SMILE - All I have to do is control my mind. 

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

it is certainly turning out to be inexplicably magical life the sun magnificent trees and nature around me kishan, arun, Dharamraj, Manju and narender - and their often taken for granted presence in our lives an opportunity to meet all the people who matter to me this year incredibly supportive albeit crazy parents and siblings building and creating something I am passionate about, every single day not answerable to anyone but myself friends who can get me out of jail if they need to  a community and support system everywhere I go  a life which allows me to travel and explore  my home and my long awaited car  the wonderful home cooked farm to table meals resilient hair - which never fail me  tireless body which has supported me through so much neglect and lack of gratitude  dumas Simon and Harleen who are wonderful souls and bring what's needed to the family Bennett, for being my guardian angel always having a comfortable bed to sleep in at night  divi...
Read more

it's clear we haven't figured out just how to be yet.

It's also clear I haven't figured out just how to be yet.  One day I'm skipping and dancing and the next day I feel like the universe's favorite punching bag.  I am aware, how egoistical that thought is.  I visualize the "skipping" me, dragging the "punching bag" me out of my own mind.  The "skipping" me is a lot more fun. I want to be with her most of the time.  I say most of the time, only because "punching bag" me makes me realize how much I appreciate "skipping" me. 
Read more